When I woke up this morning, the butterflies in my stomach from yesterday felt more like a flock of birds. Today, I would be shooting a part of Billy and Laura’s ”First Look” and CreativeLIVE would be filming and broadcasting everything LIVE, on the internet, to thousands of people. Ok, cool, I could handle that, no biggie (yeah, right!!)… What made those little bird wings beat even faster, however, was the thought that JASMINE would also be watching!!
To put this into perspective for you, imagine that you were having a little get together at your house with some friends & family to watch the video you shot of your recent vacation to Disney World. You’ve got this intimate little gathering planned, you’ve got everything under control, you’re in your element and you can’t wait to show your video and see how your friends react to the cool new things you’ve learned to do with your video camera. Then your crazy cousin Louise shows up with Steven Spielberg and announces that he’ll be staying for the show. Yes. Exactly. PANIC!! Suddenly your cool special effects seem just… mediocre.
Well, that’s how I felt knowing that Jasmine would be watching me work. Not because she’s even remotely judgemental or critical, but because I am extremely judgemental and critical of myself . So yeah, for everyone out there in cyberspace, it’s safe to say I was more than “a little nervous” about today.
Luckily, I was meeting Sachin and Audrey for breakfast, so I was able to put my performance anxiety out of my mind while we wandered around looking for an interesting place to grab a bite. We eventually found an organic bakery and decided to check it out. Audrey pointed out a sign by the cash register that said, “Try something different. If you are not entirely satisfied, we will refund you entirely.” I tried a gluten-free, vegan apple-walnut tart (it was goooood) and thought about the sign.
TRY SOMETHING DIFFERENT
That’s what I came here for. To try something different. To learn something new. To push myself creatively and get out of my comfort zone. I can eat pancakes for breakfast, or shoot with my “lazy girl lens” anytime when I’m at home. How often do I get the opportunity to eat a gluten-free, vegan apple-walnut tart – or to shoot wedding photos with no pressure to deliver a collection to a client? NOT VERY OFTEN! So I promised myself that I would make the most of this amazing opportunity and try something different today.
And I did. I shot with only one camera body (I usually have two bouncing around on my hips) and my new Shootsac packed with only my 70-200 f/2.8 and my 14-24 f/2.8. I shot Laura and Billy’s first look inside the venue with my 50mm f/1.4 (awesome!!), then when we moved outside I actually swapped in my 14-24, which I have NEVER used at a wedding for fear of making the bride look warped… but I think my favorite shots of the day were taken with that lens. I will be sharing some of those photos next week and you can let me know what you think, but right now, looking at them in Lightroom, I am SO glad that I pushed myself to try something different.
Laura and Billy were wonderful to work with too and I have to give them props for being so flexible and willing to work with each of us. They went along with anything and everything that was asked of them. They were natural and spontaneous and so in love… it was hard not to get caught up in the moment myself. Laura was so beautiful… I mean, really, really stunning and so natural and comfortable in front of the camera that you’d think she had been modeling for years and not the one behind the lens. Billy was looking and feeling great too. He even razzed Chase a little about his formalwear.
I am looking forward to tomorrow’s wedding with a renewed sense of purpose and confidence after having a nice dose of cyber-hugs from many new friends. Thanks to EVERYONE who took the time to read and comment on my blog, add me as a Facebook friend or follow me on Twitter (@KookyCatChick). Your comments and questions and encouragement are SOOOO appreciated and really made my day. I am not ashamed to admit that I sat here and cried because I was so touched at the outpouring of suport (yeah, I’m emotional like that!).
Anyhow… I REALLY need to get some sleep. So here are a few behind-the-scenes moments from today and I’ll catch you all on the flip side. Enjoy